Disappear. Come back. Disappear. Pop in again. Disappear.
What a pattern…
I miss blogging. Well… writing.
Of trying to figure out what to be, how to be, who to be.
Maybe the “food blog” thing doesn’t fit to a T anymore. Well, frankly, I don’t think it ever fit to a T per se, but it fit well enough that it could remain one of my semi-regular outfits with a bit of mild tugging and adjusting.
I think, though, that maybe I’ve outgrown that outfit now. Or maybe just for now.
But one way or the other, it just doesn’t feel like it fits anymore. And I think that’s why I struggle with writing. Because I just want to write outside of the box that I originally pigeon-holed this blog into in the first place.
I just can’t take picture of all my “meals” anymore. It’s fun once in a while. I’ll probably still do it once in a while. But not everyday. Or every second, or third. Done with that…for right now. (Plus, no iPhone = no Instagram… and that is the newest, trendiest way to food blog, no?)
Time to reach beyond meals and exercise. They mean something, but what else is out there? What else is out there for Me?
It might soon be time to move beyond the ‘Lighter Portions’ walls. New blog box to settle into? Maybe.
Life is full of a whole lot of maybes right now. A whole lot. Probably more maybes (and a whole lot more I don’t knows and what the hecks and help me pleases) than I’ve ever experienced before. Quarter life crisis and GO. Thank you 20s. You’re terrifying…awesomely full of potential, but still unbelievably terrifying.
And that about sums up the current state of my mind – Random, inconclusive, messy, confused, over analytical and never, ever shutting off.